I prepared myself for the 4th treatment with questions. I was very curious to find out what a “reading” was, a reading that reminded me of psychism, seeing ones whole life in the pulse. I was curious because I believe. And I know many things I have stuffed in my subconscious, and felt to bring them to the surface would aid to this MS healing. When I asked Sung Baek, he answered me seemingly with a riddle that made me uncomfortable. But was it really a riddle? Or did I just not want to hear and understand?
Ted writes: What I remember is that Sung said something like this: I read pulses in order to treat you. I don’t tell you everything, because that takes too much time. If you want just to get well, I will read pulses and treat you. If you are going to be treated by someone else (not me), then I would need to tell you what I feel, read, see in your pulses, so that information can inform the healing. Again, if you are being treated by me and you want to know everything, then we can do a reading.
After the treatment I talked with Ted about it, because I was somehow jarred by this answer from Sung. I wanted someone to tell me “Go for it. It would be great for you” rather than hearing, “It’s up to you” and that in essense was what Sung said to me. Due to his capitalistic approach to healing, which by the way is far less than the medical capitalism, but far more obvious and straightforward, I decided to rest, and to trust that which I know. And I know a lot about myself.
He ended up prescribing burning again moxa on 4 points again, 2 legs and 2 arms, that I need to continue. He was sort of surprised that John Neighbors had placed wrong points for moxa burning the month before, so he burned these points himself to show me. This pissed me off because I had been burning these wrong points for a whole month. I again realized that things are not perfect and they don’t need to be perfect. John meant well. Being pissed off, I have struggled with not burning those points for two weeks now and intend to start next week.
At the end of the treatment, he had me sit up and work along my spine making a zig zag line from one vertebrate to the other, back and forth (left and right) poking with the needle (not leaving it in). Then he did something quite painful on my neck, separating the two sides of my skull from the occipital ridge. I had a clear thought, thinking that I can do that myself, with a small ball in that ridge, breathing, and rolling the ball up and down and side to side.
Then I asked Sung if I could do a headstand again. He advised me not to, because my neck is weak. That pissed me off too. How can one strengthen the neck in order to do something like a headstand? That is my approach, seemingly not his.
If I ever want to have a healthy bladder, I need to not be so pissy. Ha ha.
Ted and I had a great time on Saturday in New Hope, PA. It was a tourist day, without souvenirs. Or is that so? Are the memories in the heart not a souvenir?
I am preparing now for my 5th month. I do not have an intention to ask him a question. I will save my last question for the 6th and last treatment, which will simply be how to go on from now regarding herbs, emotions, mind, blah, blah, blah.
Oh yeah, I forgot, I had asked Sung about diet and he said something that I knew for a long time, and guess what? I practiced it too, for a long time. 70% protein, 30% green vegetables. No sugar, which includes potatoes, peas, carrots and fruit. Guess what? That pissed me off too! It pissed me off because I had rejected my friend Selene, who had taught me this diet, since she had moved away. Now that I am eating this way again, I’ve lost some weight, yeah yeah, and my bladder says “yippee!” Oh gee, just shup up! Did you know my dear friends, female and male, that when a woman does not express herself, something else is talking. When the upper lips don’t talk, the lower lips will talk, yeah, yeah.
Since the treatment, I had a wonderful experience of starting to do beginners Iyengar yoga Monday nights and medical/gentle yoga Tuesdays midday. I actually was invited to teach Iyengar yoga six years ago by Gabriel Halpern. But the guy made me very uncomfortable then, the way he addressed the female body in a way that felt inappropriate to me. It led to panic. Should I have not been pissed off? It would be a normal response to something like that? But since I’ve always stuffed, my whole life, negative emotions, I now call it panic. I’ve got to think about this one. How can I explain that? It’s another moment, to make peace and see the best of what people are giving to each other. And I truly decided to call it Incorrigible MS, which does include sexy and wild, and so much more, and so it is.
Peace.
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